Why We Should Love More

I wrote this blog article as in counselling it is largely about relationship issues. About being hurt, upset about the way being treated, confused on how to go forward or trying to nut out how to keep a sense of loving thyself. I would be lying if I didn’t say these issues have confronted me also in my life experiences, from my feelings about my parents, family and friends. But hopefully I have learnt along the way about love.


We can hold it back, we can divide our love so we love this person more and that person less, we can refuse love or be frightened of it when it is offered, reject it or just take it for granted but love in the end is all we have.

You can’t see it like possessions, you can’t buy it, you can’t add it up or weigh it but you can feel it if you let it in or extend it freely to others.

You can love someone that annoys you as you feel something, you can love the baker, the shop keeper, your work colleagues, your boss. You can love the person you thought your enemy. Hate as the opposite, it does not understand or give. It takes. 

Love is in the mind, it’s not sickly or gooey, it’s proud, it’s strong and resilient when tested. It does not need saying all the time in words. It can be expressed by not saying something, listening says it, it can be said by just being beside someone, a gift of space, a gesture, a present, a card, a text, a thought held. And then there is physical love of touch that releases beautiful mind chemicals of happiness and bonding. Love lives in the mind. It is its home.

Your family and friends need more love despite the differences that sometimes divide and finding new ways to navigate those differences takes courage. Be brave. Trust me on that. Love can still have boundaries and sometimes it needs boundaries to protect it.

Give it freely, accept it with appreciation, hold it and think of it as treasure. As humans on the planet together it is all we have that makes us all the same. There is no rich or poor with love as you can’t buy it. We can all have the same if we want. All we have to do is let it be free to release it in the air. 

And here is why love is so important. 

In the end we all die. 

Gerry North, psychotherapist treating depression, anxiety, addictions, panic attacks and couple relationships. Email: gerrynorthcounsellor@gmail.com

Dream the New Dream



We have all been swamped with negative media stories night and day about the Coronavirus. It is and has been a terrible thing with much human tragedy. The world will be a much different place when things subside into a new normal.


Self-isolation is a responsible theme we live by to protect ourselves and others. It has brought about behaviour change in all of us and it has provided a way of us thinking about new ways of being. (So many more bikes have been purchased for exercise, understanding that exercise is essential for wellbeing)


A positive element of this crisis is finding new ways to experience life in the future. Maybe work less, exercise more, eat better, communicate more with family and friends, experience life in the now rather than catastrophizing negative outcomes, learning to meditate, planning a more relaxing lifestyle that might mean having less and generally being more connected to the now – existential life.


I know that is a lot to think about. Put simply maybe this is a good time to dream the new dream for us personally and for those in relationships that need a good tune up. The three important pillars for a successful relationship are trust, sharing each other’s inner worlds (joys and fears) and having shared dreams for a new way of existing.


Having shared dreams is a really positive way of moving forward out of the rut that all relationships get into. Relationships need to wriggle and finding new dreams, both working towards them, bonds a couple towards a new mutual positive force.


Sometimes the dreams do not get fulfilled entirely but the journey starts a new way of being and things will happen that were totally unexpected. The rut is now a road – forward.


The clients that do well are those that write things down, adopt new skills and take time reviewing progress. Writing it all down is the gift for change. Getting a little diary and writing things down is the way to go.


Most of my friends and clients have taken a look at their lives, 3 with the coronavirus, wanting to change their lives when this crisis is over. Can you feel a tap on your shoulder now for a new way of experiencing life?


One last thing which I have spoken of before, the St Vincent’s Hospital in Sydney runs anxiety and depression online course with a high level of success. They are providing specific courses to handle the Coronavirus situation from a mental health view and they are all free (previously £30) Here is the link


Keep well and if you need any help with counselling matters email me at; gerrynorthcounsellor@gmail.com. Skype and telephone counselling with support material on any matter freely available.


Do You Argue Often and Solve Little

Many clients come to see me because they report communication problems and are continually fighting without resolving anything. After each argument there is a time of feeling in a blue mood and later this turns to purple with depression and feelings of hopelessness.

In time each partner eventually returns to a green zone of some harmony as reactive emotions dissolve. But soon another discussion will trigger the partners where they first go to the warning amber zone and then to the red zone, with feelings of anger, resentment, frustration and disorder. This negative cycle is continually repeated moving from green to amber, red to blue then depressing purple.

What is happening is they are not listening to each other. The basic tenant of effective communication is listening well and validating the others point of view before stating your view. But communicating well is more than just words. In fact not saying things is  positive communication that you want to listen.

Positive communication is more than just words. It can be shown by closing the computer or turning off the TV when they get home to have a chat about the day, making a cup of tea for someone that needs it, thanking them for the cup of tea, arranging a date night, changing the bathroom towel, a hug, kiss, cuddle, gift etc. There are so many ways to communicate positive regard to your partner.

Let’s go back to the arguments that continually occur. When I see couples for the first time I take a shotgun question approach to find out the big picture about all the aspects of the relationship, both good and bad. When people argue a lot about small things it usually means there are underlying structural problems in the relationship. Maybe there is a power imbalance, money issues, sexual issues, continual resentment feelings from a past event, etc. By looking at the many aspects of the relationship we should be able to find the structural problem. The problem is the problem and the problem is the message. (That is a lot to digest I know.)

In the meantime how do you prevent every discussion going into the red zone? What is happening is in the amber zone you are getting information that you are about to be triggered. You will feel this in your body first, maybe a tightness in your chest, a tight jaw, a headache, etc. You are about to enter the red zone. When you get this warning call it is time for TIME OUT. Say you will discuss this later but separate and take the dog for a walk, make bread, read or play some music, just do something else to get back to the green zone.

One of the reasons you are being triggered is a part of your brain, the Amygdala, is awake and about to make you either fiee, fight or maybe freeze. Mostly a fight response as you feel under threat. Now you are in the red zone either yelling (which you later hate yourself for as well as abusing your partner) or running away. After the red zone you will hit the blue and purple zones.

The trick is to not get into the red zone. You should be able to find your own way of not getting there. Time out is one way. Maybe not saying what you want to say is another way to stay in the green zone. Maybe telling your partner you want to listen carefully to them so they get it all out and then have your say. One golden way to always keep in the green zone is to repeat back everything you heard, “What I heard you say was …….”. You do not have to accept what was said but you show you have listened and validated what they said. After this you have your say and they repeat that back. Applying this Responsive Listening technique will always keep you both in the green zone, in fact you will feel so much closer afterwards.

To recap communicating positively that your partner is highly regarded by you is more than using words, in fact it can also be the absence of words. The reasons people argue a lot about small things is there is an underlying structural issue in the relationship. Finally when you argue, stop yourself getting into the red zone as at that point you brain is sending powerful survival messages that you are under threat and need to fight, flee or freeze. De-esculating the argument will stop that happening with Time Out or something more creative.

Gerry North is a couple counsellor and treats anxiety, depression, panic attacks, grief and loss and addictions.


Many gay couples come for counselling wanting to discuss having sex outside their relationship. Gay men need to negotiate this issue maturely, as having sex with others is a threat to relationship intimacy – but not talking about it is an even a bigger one.

Having a monogamous ideal is fine, but keeping it all in a “not for discussion box” is like trying to keep a lid on the nature as gay men. I am not advocating that couples seek sex outside their relationship. I am merely saying it should be discussed so there is no confusion or deceit.

Sometimes one partner wants to open up the relationship more than the other, who could be struggling with jealousy or fear of losing their partner. However more damage is done if lies and deception are in place. Nothing destroys a relationship more than secrets.

Finding out your partner has been fucking around behind your back when you thought you were in a monogamous relationship will cause huge emotional distress. Also, feeling like a fool for not knowing about it is psychologically damaging, especially when friends have known. With a well-structured sexual agreement in place and understood, this will not happen.

Surprisingly, most gay men deep down believe that other gay men will fuck around but this does not mean their partners can do it behind their backs. When couples come to see me with this issue, I firstly congratulate them for showing respect for their relationship. Gay men are more realistic and honest about this sensitive issue than straight men.

So when is the best time to sit down and negotiate an agreement? For beginning couples I suggest as soon as when they know they are in a committed relationship. You are either having a monogamous relationship or you are not. For long-term couples things change over time, with once a monogamous understanding being replaced by partners willing to open to entertain sex with others.

Once the shock of an open relationship has been dealt, there is now room to reinvent the terms of the sex relationship. It is time to negotiate what is acceptable and agreed to by each person to protect intimacy between the partners. Strict rules of when, how often and under what conditions. Also, the notion that intimacy for each other on so many levels has nothing to do with sex with strangers needs to be fully understood.

Typical Case Study

George and Sam* have been together for eight years and live together – but their sex life has diminished. George wants to open up what has been a monogamous relationship belief. Sam is not happy about this and found sex emails on George’s computer. He also suspects George is having sex when away on business. Sam wants to leave the relationship, as he is hurt and confused. In counselling, George admits he has been having sex while away for the last year and this secret has made him feel dirty and unworthy.

Maybe this is a wake up call and I ask if they see anything positive about it. George says he is relieved to have told Sam about being unfaithful, while Sam says he finally knows and can now plan to leave George. I point out the mind wants that to happen, but does Sam’s heart have a voice? He admits he loves George but does not know how to forgive him. Sam is jealous and scared of losing George, while George says he loves Sam but what can he do when he feels horny and Sam is not into it anymore. George also says it is just sex and he loves his life with Sam.

In the second session, we discuss intimacy and being intimate, and the difference with Sam understanding now that George will not leave him. I point out this is easy to say but they both need a sex agreement. The following session, they come with their own conditions about how often and where it will happen, not to see the person more than once, no texting, full protection, and even the possibility of a threesome if both fancy it.

Sam now feels better and admits his previous monogamous understanding was for the past. I insist they write down their agreement and both sign it. They agree to return for monthly sessions to make sure they are okay emotionally.

A six-month follow-up shows George has had sex three times while away on business and Sam once. They tried a threesome but it was a disaster. Overall, they now feel more connected as before Sam was feeling quite the opposite. We can now talk about ways to improve their own sex lives together, which requires both to get back in the boat.

What is interesting is that some couples, once they have opened up the relationship and try it, decide it is not all they thought it would be. The grass was not a green as they thought on the other side. They now enter a discussion on developing a closer relationship with each other, protecting their intimacy together.

A/ Not real names.



Definition of Psychotherapy

Psychotherapy is the use of psychological methods, particularly when based on regular personal interaction, to help a person change and overcome problems in desired ways. Psychotherapy aims to improve an individual’s well-being and mental health, to resolve or mitigate troublesome behaviors, beliefs, compulsions, thoughts, or emotions, and to improve relationships and social skills

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Marriage counselling, also called couples therapy, is a type of psychotherapy. Marriage counseling helps couples of all types recognize and resolve conflicts and improve their relationships. Through marriage counseling, you can make thoughtful decisions about rebuilding your relationship or going your separate ways.

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There are over a thousand different psychotherapy techniques, some being minor variations, while others are based on very different conceptions of psychology, ethics (how to live) or techniques. Most involve one-to-one sessions, between client and therapist.

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Anxiety is defined as nervousness, apprehension, and self-doubt that may or may not be associated with real-life stressors. Everyone experiences some level of anxiety periodically, but when feelings of dread and worry are unfocused, overwhelming, recurring, and not directly linked to stressful events, anxiety may leave a person severely impaired.

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Depression—a sad or discontented mood—can leave a person feeling lethargic, unmotivated, or hopeless. In some cases, depression can lead to suicidal ideation. Depression may occur in a severe form, as in major depression, or in a more chronic, mild-to-moderate form, as is the case with persistent depressive disorder.

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I see many clients who report 12 hour workdays suffering either: stress, anxiety, depression or a breakdown in personal relationships but not wanting to reduce the corporate work commitments. They say they are happy working these hours, as they feel fulfilled. They are actually addicted to doing and not being, well their mind is so addicted.

When they return from a long holiday they experience how their lives have been hijacked by a corporate work ethic. After a few weeks back at work they are again addicted – or their brain is. Are you leading a pleasantly full life or a busy life? Is it time to be mindful or thoughtful about how you are living your life? It is an important question to ask don’t you think?

Peer pressure, public status, wanting glamorous life goods and the push to get as much money as possible are some of the drivers for people developing exhausting busy lives. What is a pleasantly full life is another question and is it naturally different for everyone? I think it is about increasing the connection with the real world – the natural environment and our relationships with family, work colleagues, our communities and friends.

How many internal thoughts have you had about observing people totally disconnected from the real world? The prime example is watching people texting while walking or driving. This embodies this disconnect, especially when witnessed at pedestrian crossings.

It is time to become thoughtful about spending more time with family, friends, taking walks in the country air, sitting outside watching life, cooking slowly, wearing cosy socks, comfortable clothes and reading a good book on the couch with the dog at our feet. Does this seem more nurturing to you and relaxing into life’s joys?

Our real lives of being rather than doing are under ever increasing threat. The fascination with the latest technology, instant entertainment satisfaction, wanting instant online sex, and experiencing a constant feeling of needing to do things faster robs us of a having a thoughtful pleasant life. Mindfulness is being thoughtful about what your true self wants as a life.

To make life changes we first need to acknowledge there is a problem, as we can’t change what we don’t acknowledge. Can you put technology down, leave your phone at home, stop texting so much, reduce your work hours, date rather than get casual instant sex and generally develop a plan for a new life of being over constant doing.

Having a simpler life might mean moving to a cheaper house, working less hours, doing creative things rather than only financial pursuits and generally slowing it all down and at the same time having a full life of non work activities.

My partner recently decided to take a year off from the corporate world and is experiencing life anew. But his friends insist he get back into the work force. Can you think of reasons why they pressure him to do so? I find the reasons for this peer pressure very interesting!

So maybe have a good think now on what you are doing with your life. Mindfulness will get you there because now you are being thoughtful rather than repeating unconscious busy pursuits.






You have been in a relationship for a while however the way you are communicating with each other is not healthy or positive and you know it. And the reason is more than likely the relationship dynamic that has developed. Let me explain.

The dynamic is the mental attitude and behaviour you exhibit towards your partner. Take for example you have developed a mental idea that your partner is basically lazy, never gets around to organizing important matters and if it was not for you the whole financial and social world you live in would collapse.

This now is your established way of thinking about your partner and you organize everything to the point of becoming a control freak. Meanwhile your partner has become so used to you organizing everything they are oblivious to how things get done. This oblivious behaviour now confirms the view that the partner is lazy and hopeless at organizing anything.

Bingo we now have a relationship dynamic that is not healthy or positive for growth. So what can you do to change a non-healthy dynamic? Well first it requires self-reflection and a good honest chat on why the dynamic is not working. The problem is the problem and neither of you is the problem, is a good place to start.

Knowing you are a control freak is one thing you will know about yourself. Getting upset and anxious when things do not work out as you scheduled is a strong sign. This feeling can be exhausting and cause depression or anxiety. What about stepping back and seeing what happens when you don’t over plan things? Spontaneity is a wonderful thing and events happen that are never imagined.

To change the dynamic each partner is going to have to be conscious of changing the mental dynamic and response behaviour daily. That means the control freak does not jump in and find the solution immediately to fix an issue and the other partner takes a more pro-active role in getting things done.

If you both can do this mental change in the relationship dynamic you will witness a reduction of tension, the removal of anxiety, a closeness (lost over time) and a spurt of curiosity for new ways of doing things.

It is always interesting to me to hear the perception of a person who is a control freak, seeing themselves as caring and looking after people rather than controlling. And the person being controlled perceives himself or herself as useless but wanting a bigger voice on what happens in the relationship world.

There are many different types of unhealthy relationship dynamics that develop such as non listening, being defensive, laptop and mobile phone addiction, excessive criticism, etc.

However with understanding and a good tune up, relationships can become healthier and more joyful with a change in the fundamental dynamic. How exciting!

Gerry North is a gay couple counsellor and also treats anxiety, depression, sexual matters and addictions. Email; gerrynorthcounsellor@gmail.com M 0411 368 142





Communication breakdown is one of the major issues couples say is the problem in their relationship. The love underneath is felt but a distance has been created where there seems little to say to each other and a sense of boredom has crept in. There are many causes of this that can be addressed with curiosity for “what else”.

Being Present

It is impossible to have good communication if either person is not fully present in the relationship. Having secrets is a major barrier to being present.

Mobile Phones & Laptops

We love them. We need them, as they are storage for things that are important in our lives – our second brain. When going out for dinner or just out, especially with him or her, try leaving them at home. At home when they come home close the computer for a while to chat about each other’s days. We know we are addicted to them because without them we feel, well, naked. When you feel that emotion, being without your phone/computer, know that it is your addiction speaking to you. Interesting!


There is a lot or research on the negative aspects of immersion in relationships. That is doing everything together all the time. I know it feels safe to be with him or her but in doing so there is deep down compromise going on, with each person not having any new experiences. And without new experiences there is little to talk about. We don’t really have to do everything together. A separate holiday, a night our with separate friends, yoga class, tennis, book club, a movie – are things that can be done separate to your partner and the benefits are many. There is no need to feel threatened if you have trust in your relationship. You will enjoy it after the first felt emotions.

How is Our Relationship Going Chat

Asking and inviting the answer to the question, “How is our relationship going do you think?” is an excellent thing to do regularly. There are many assumptions made by us individually about our partner’s wellbeing. Inviting the answer to this question allows many things assumed to be discussed. We all want to hear, ‘Great’ but maybe there is a time to talk about sex, finance, domestic duty sharing, time spent with each other, etc.

Love Language

It is very easy to take each other for granted. They always come home, our domestic life is cozy and life is good, safe and predictable. Over time we tend to stop thanking our partners for that cup of tea, forget to organize a restaurant booking, buy theatre tickets, flowers, a card to say ‘I love you’ (or say it), text during the day, call each other by a loving nickname and generally thank them for being there with you.

Being Grateful

I’m sure you have heard about the benefits of sharing what you are grateful for before going to sleep. There you are in fresh sheets, feeling like giggling because you are so happy and cozy next to them and this is the perfect time to reel off 3 things you are grateful for in your life. Doing this is so bonding and it is so simple.

Having a sense of shared curiosity about doing things differently will open up communication between couples. Starting with, “How is our relationship going do you think?” is a great beginning.




Gay couples come to see me to explain that the spark has gone as there is little sex in their relationship and now there are shared feelings of a lack of intimacy. This is despite living together, enjoying each others company, socializing together with friends and family, sharing loved pets, planning holidays together and having dreams about a place in the country one day. Intimacy is not only defined by how much sex is going on. Companionship is also undervalued intimacy.

Sex alone however does help to form intimate feelings, with the sharing of yummy brain chemicals but unfortunately that same brain will de-sex your partner over time as it searches for new experiences. And then the longer the sex gap the bigger the barrier to get back in the boat, or bath, becomes so to speak. There are very obvious, but often unacknowledged, obstacles that prevent sex happening.


Many of us work in busy and often stressful jobs, and commonly take work home with us at the end of the day. This can mean that the working day becomes incredibly long and at times seems endless. In these circumstances, there is no surprise that our sex life may not be getting the attention it deserves.


You cannot be intimate if you are not present for each other. That might be spending too much time on individual computers at home, not listening properly to what your partner is saying, or forgetting to have diners out with just the two of you. You have to spend time together to be intimate.


A lack of communication reduces a sense of intimacy in the relationship and reduces the desirability for sexual encounters. Telling each other what worries each other is so important. Discussing sex issues helps to break the ice but if there never seems a right time to talk about this place an entry on the diary, whiteboard or whatever to do so.


If you are lucky you will have the same libido as your partner but this rarely is the case. Stress, bad sleeping or eating habits, lack of exercise and mental wellbeing affects libido. Paying attention to these aspects of health can lift personal libido. But nature will change your libido at various times of life. Talking about your libido with your partner should help them see it is not about rejection.


You know it is very possible to re-stoke the fire even if the flames will not rage as they once did. Set aside time to have a romantic evening with music, wine and some erotic images (porn is not a bad thing if not a compulsive habit). Change the way you have sex by having no expectations about orgasm and taking it slowly. Have a bath together. Lie in bed naked and talk with your legs on one another or sit of the couch with legs on each other. Discuss when you both met and what you liked about each other and still do now.


One game that has helped many clients start the ball rolling is the placing of a jar in the house. Place things you want discussed in the jar. Just a short note and then once a week, at a designated time, sit down and discuss them. Be creative and spend time with each other as you can’t be intimate without being present physically and mentally. When you communicate better by being present for each other that sex spark will more than likely sparkle again.




So you are single gay and you have really tried to find a hunky partner but now you have concluded it is never going to happen. It is very natural to commence the blame game and take the whole thing personally, beating your self up with thoughts like, “I am not interesting or sexy enough” or “I can pick them up but they don’t come back for more, so it must be me.”

No it is not you it is a case of pure statistics. Okay let us look at the facts. If you accept 10% of the male population is gay that excludes 90% of men. Of that 10% of gay men, half are in relationships leaving 5% and half of those do not want a relationship so that leaves 2.5%. So out of that 2.5% of the population your mission (should you decide to accept it) is to find someone that you really would like to share your life with.


Now say luck is on your side and finally there he is in his sexy underwear, appearing out of nowhere, bathed in golden sunshine on your very doorstep. (This is what normally happens – truly. I wouldn’t lie to you.) Now once you have snared that someone special please work on keeping him.


It saddens me when gay couples split up without trying to find the answers to their relationship problems. It appears easy for some; to throw away essentially good relationships over problems that with healthy adult discussion can be worked out.


Anyway back to the singles. Make sure you look after yourself mentally, as unlike heterosexual males you only have a small sample of the population to find your ideal partner. If you take not finding HIM too personally you are mentally going to bash yourself up and that is unattractive. There is someone out there that wants what you want, trust me.


Looking after you means having a good relationship with you first. Get to know your loves of – music, film, theatre, books, art, work, exercise, cooking, travel, and enjoy time with family and friends. Having a positive emotional relationship with your self will make you feel better connected to the world. It will also make you more attractive to the very man you are looking for.


So maybe have a think about if what you are presently doing is helping you find the partner you want. Can you make life changes to improve your relationship with yourself by getting healthier, mentally and physically? Good luck and happy hunting!